Hi everyone!
A couple things before I get personal:
Now for the personal: Even though I had all these great things happen, it was done with a heavy heart. On October 13, I lost one of my biggest supporters, my father. Even though we had our up and downs, we still had a strong bond. This was more evident as I was by his side when he passed away. I've been though a lot of trauma and betrayal in my lifetime (you name it, I've been though it), but nothing compares to looking into the eyes of the one you love so much as they die. The holidays are upon us, and so are new firsts that are going to be the hardest to endure. I miss my father every day. I wish I could call him about all of the good things and triumphs in my life. I wish he could be here to see all of my future endeavors. But I'm also grateful. I'm grateful that we reconciled during my teen years. I'm grateful that I had his support when I came out. He had my back when others were treating me horribly. When I was doubting myself (anxiety is evil, y'all), Dad would always call me his superstar and play Prince's "Baby I'm a Star" to encourage me. To not hear him anymore hurts, but I know he's still here in spirit. I know he's proud of me. And I know I will be okay, because I'm surrounded by love and support by my family (both blood and found) and my amazing friends. So as the holiday season is upon, please be good to yourselves and each other. Love yourselves and let go of what doesn't bring you joy because... Oh baby, I'm a...(Star!) Ooh... Might not know it now Baby, but I are, I'm a star (Star!) I don't want to stop 'til I reach the top Sing it! (We are a star!) 'Til next time. In Loving Memory of Ron Scott (1941-2022)
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